I’ve been a TOTAL bitch today. No smiles, no laughter. Nope, just a bitch. If you met me in person you’d know this is very much the opposite of my personality. Yes I can be grouchy and bitchy at times, but never all day. Why am is so bitchy? well, because …
I am not looking forward to going to the sleep clinic tonight. Nope, not at all.
I mean, I really don’t have problems sleeping. It’s the pain that I’m in that keeps me from trying to go to bed, or if I’m feeling ok, I simply just don’t want to go to sleep. If I’m not having pain I want to enjoy the feeling, so why would I sleep? Would you?
I’m actually going for the sleep study because I have problems sleeping after working a night shift. However, I haven’t worked a night shift since early December, and I’m not going back to work due to my illness until near the end of July if my illness has calmed down.
So why am I going now? Because my doctor wants me to. Even the sleep study doctor didn’t understand the request, although he did want to put me in a study for insomnia due to pain. Uh, that was the marijuana pill study, and I haven’t heard from the researchers running that study so I’m assuming I didn’t qualify, or perhaps they are waiting for me to complete the sleep study before contacting me. Who knows.
My poor husband. I’ve been miserable today. Very bitchy, grouchy, you name it. I just don’t want to go to the study, and I’m sure that because I don’t want to go and since I’ve let it ruin my whole day, I probably won’t sleep.
I am going to try to sleep. It would be pointless not to, plus, what else am I going to do there? They already told me they won’t let me leave even if I can’t sleep.
When I escape from the clinic tomorrow morning I’ll come home and tell you all about how they tortured me. Ok? I think I might bring my camera too. No, not to take pictures of the clinic (I might though), but to take some pictures in the morning while I’m downtown. I’ll probably be so happy to escape that I’ll walk to the nearest subway station, which is a 10 or 15 minute walk from where I’ll be. If I see any good sights to take some photo’s of, I’ll be sure to whip my camera out and capture them. As with any big city, the downtown area can be interesting in the early morning.
I’m going to post my Wordless Wednesday photo early. Perhaps by 7:30 pm E.S.T. as I’ll need to leave for the clinic by 8 p.m. Come back and find out what I posted. I’m trying to decide if I should post something that reflects my current mood or not.